Are there any online hotlines for people that are suicidal?

I've been depressed lately and thinking about suicide.I am really paranoid about calling suicide hotlines because i got put in a mental hospital last year for talking to someone about my cutting problem and i dont want to go back,ever,not for anything.So i was wondering if there was somewhere online you could go to talk to someone.Kind of like a chat room,but with only me and the person I'd be talking to.Do you know of any places like that?